好きだから

Title : 好きだから

Rating : K+.

Genre : General.

Pairing(s) : AkayaxYanagi.

Warning(s) : None.

Disclaimer : I don’t own Prince of Tennis. All right reserved to Konomi Takeshi.

A/N : More AkaYana. They had a fight. A bit sad, perhaps. 

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"Enough! Do whatever you want! I don't care anymore! Why don't you die with your own pool of tears! Alone, forever!"

With that, he left.
Akaya.
My junior, who has a feeling for me.
My lover, sort of.

We just had a little fight. Just a simple, little fight. But it end up like this.

"Die, huh.."
And in my own pool of tears, he said. Isn't it a little too much?

Hurts.

So he confessed to me a few weeks ago. I agreed to go out with him. We spent time together. We hold hands. We kiss. We laugh. We're happy. I think it's enough.

But he wants more. He wants to know deeper about me. He wants me to open up with him, talk things with him, show all of my emotion to him.

But I can't.
It's not a simple thing for me. I wasn't used to show affection to others - no - I don't know how to show them. I don't know how to share.

That's why he's angry. Because he thinks he's not good enough. He's not important enough to me. I was mad at his way of thinking. Isn't it enough, as long as we're happy? Why should I show him my weak, bad side? It's my emotion, I have right to do whatever I want. I want to keep it myself, so what? He should mind his own business. That's what I said, and that's what makes everything end up like this.

He never got mad before. He always listen to whatever I say, and when we had fight, he always apologize first because he knew, I never wrong.
But it seems like today's event won't be same like usual.

Die in my own pool of tears, alone, forever..
How could he said such thing?
Alone, he said.
Forever, he said..

Suddenly, tears falls.
I never feel this pain before, not even when I left Sadaharu.
I touch my own tears. It's hot.

--Hurts.

I cried some more. Cried until my eyes went red, until I can't feel my own breath.

Hurts.
My eyes, my throat, my chest, my heart.
Why.

I can't see my surroundings. It's blurry. My hand can't stop shaking.
So.
I was alone.
In my pool of tears.
Maybe, forever.

Suddenly my cellphone rang. New mail arrived.
I look at my cellphone on the table.
It's 68.1% probability him.

I don't want to see.
I don't want to know.
Yet, my hand come closer to the table, reaching for the cellphone.
It's still blurry, I can't see. So slowly, I wipe my tears. I open the mail.

Indeed, it's from Akaya.
It has no subject. The contents said,
"..I still love you anyway."

I opened my usually half-closed eyes. I read it again and again.
It's not hateful words.
It's not a break up announcement.
It's..

My tears fell again.
It hurts, but different from before. I don't know what's it called.

What a jerk.
What are you saying after told that I should die. That I'm alone.
If you send me a mail like this, isn't it an exact opposite?

I cried some more.
So, I'm fall in love.
And I'm loved.

I'm not alone.

This time is my bad, so I must apologize to him. Will he forgive me? Why of course, because we love each other.

So, what should I say?
Is a simple "I love you" sounds convincing?
What do you think?