Unfair

Tittle : Unfair
Rating : PG13.
Genre : Romance.
Pairing(s) : Yanagi x Kirihara.
Warning(s) : BoyxBoy. Cheesy.
A/N : Still draft. Will edit it later.

-.-.-.-

"Yanagi-san, you have a lot of attractive friends." Akaya said while pouted. Yanagi raises an eyebrow.

"Maybe. So?"

"Don't cheat on me."

The older man smiled. Really, his lover can be silly sometimes. He whispered in Akaya's ear.

"Why should I do that when I've got you?"

"Liar! You absolutely did it with Oshitari-san last week!" He groaned and push Yanagi off, sulking.

"Hmm."

"Don't 'hmm' me! You didn't do it just once, dammit! You also together with Kite-san 10 days ago! Why you do this to me.." He let out frustated sigh. Yanagi holds him.

"But you are the one I love, Akaya."

"..Whatever." He still sulking, but accept it when Yanagi gave him soft kiss in the lips. "You're so damn unfair, you know?"

"Yes," Yanagi chuckled. "And you love me."

He can not disagree.

-.-.-.-

Life has been so cool, until that time.

Yanagi ate lunch with Sadaharu in the cafeteria. They argued about something like global warming or so. Then it happened. They saw Akaya with someone else, talking happily.

Somehow, Yanagi's breath feel heavier.

"Isn't that Shiraishi, student in our year? Why is he with your boyfriend?" Sadaharu asked while munching his caesar salad. Yanagi stared at them, then shakes his head.

"Who knows."

"They're close, aren't they." Sadaharu said, trying to tease him. Yanagi put a small smile.

"Indeed. It's not everyday to see Akaya really close to someone." He said calmly. Sadaharu muttered something like 'no fun', but Yanagi ignored him.

Somehow, it hurts.

-.-.-.-

And it's about 1 week later that Yanagi made a sudden decision.

"Let's break up."

They are in the middle of eating dinner in the dining room. Akaya, who seconds ago just slurping his Ramen broth, spill it up. His eyes widened.

"What?"

"I know it, I've been so unfair to you. You must be tired of this personality of mine." Yanagi said calmly as he bit the potato in nikujaga. Akaya glared at him.

"You're seriously cheated on me?"

"You should know better."

Akaya slammed his hand on the table. He looks really mad.

"You..!"

"I'll be move out in 3 days." Yanagi cut him off. "So you will have your own room then, without me disturb you."

With that, he finishes his dinner. He clean it up and disappear to his own room, leaving Akaya alone in anger and confusion.

The last thing he heard was a loud crash of plate cracking, and a swear, "Fucking shit!".

-.-.-.-

They are not talking to each other, and it was the day. Yanagi isn't home since yesterday. Akaya checked his room once, and he saw all his belongings are already packed and it frustrates him more.

"Is it really over now..?" Akaya whispered. He doesn't get it. He never say yes when Yanagi said it to him. He's mad in the fact that Yanagi cheated on him, but not at the level wanting break up. Yanagi already tested his loyalty so many times before so he was immune to that kind of scene.

He knew that his boyfriend is one hell of troublesome person; never let anyone to tell what's on his mind, likes to pull mindfuck games, sometimes selfish.. But he loves him. They are already through hard times, they passed it together, and this is the result? So ironic that he wants to laugh and then cry.

Suddenly, the bell rang. He jerked up. 'Is it him..?' He thought as making a way through the door. He opened it.

It was Inui Sadaharu, Yanagi's best friend.

"Yo, Kirihara." He greets casually. "I come to take Renji's belongings."

Akaya twitched. What the hell?

He wanted to snap and scream at Inui but before it happens, Inui speaks first.

"He's moving to my condo."

It explains everything, but still. Why didn't he come here? Where the fuck is he?

Is he really want to forget me that much..
He pained himself as he thought that. It hurts.

"So finally you two break up." Inui began. Akaya tells him to shut up and go away fast. The glasses man smirked mockingly.

"It's silly though." He paused to put the package in the floor, and then continues. "The reason of it."

"I think I already told you to shut up, Inui-san."

"Don't want to and you can't make me, Kirihara. You already know the cause of it?"

"..He's cheating on me."

"Oh?"

"..."

"It's that all?"

"Shut up."

"You two are really an idiot, then." Inui raised his glasses. He stared at Akaya for so long. The younger man growled.

"To end a relationship because self-aware of jealousy, is really lame. Not to mention that both party are still love each other."

Akaya blinked. He didn't expect that, so all he could say was, "Huh?"

"Renji saw you with Shiraishi 10 days ago. Even though he didn't show it, I know that he's jealous."

Now Akaya is more confused. Yanagi jealous at Shiraishi, so he wants to break up with him? Why don't he say it himself?

"Why don't you ask him? Right now, he's in my room." Akaya grumbled at Inui's mind-reading, but he likes the idea. Inui threw his key. Akaya catch it and stared at him.

"Why?"

"Because you two are such an idiot. And my friend. Let's just say that I want to see my two idiot friend happy with each other and quickly erase their idiocy and.. Whatever, just go."

He nodded and thanked him softly. With that, Akaya left.

-.-.-.-

He didn't stop even for a second. Without hesitation, he unlocked the door as soon as he reach the room. He heard Yanagi said, "Aren't you a bit too fast?" from the living room so he goes there. He found him sat in the kotatsu while watching TV. When Yanagi turned around, his eyes widened, as if it was impossible for him to be there right now.

"Yanagi-san."

He didn't answer, just muttering something like 'stupid sadaharu' and 'I'll make you drink my juice later'. Akaya came closer to him. Yanagi refused to look him in the eye.

"Yanagi-san."

He still didn't answer, so Akaya put his hand on Yanagi's cheek.

"I don't care if you don't want to look at me, but you must answer all of my question." Yanagi didn't respond, but what the hell. As long as he will answer.

"Is it true that you were jealous at Shiraishi-san?" Yanagi fronze. He still looked calm as ever, but his eyes opened slightly. He bit his lip.

"Is that true?" He asked once more. Yanagi said 'yes' in a very low voice. Akaya's look softened.

"So that's why you want to break up with me?"

Silence. Akaya is going to ask once more but when he looked at Yanagi's face, he dismissed the idea. Instead, he put their palms together.

"Tell me." He mutters as placing his head on Yanagi's shoulder. "Tell me everything. I want to hear the reason."

Silence took them for several minutes before Yanagi began to speak.

"It was.. Unfair. I was unfair." He hold their hands tightly. "I always make fun of your feeling; the one that I call test for loyalty. You have to go through it so many times. Now.." He trailed off. His voice cracked slightly. "When I feel it myself, I realized how unfair I was."

Akaya listens to him carefully, slowly nodded when he stopped. Yanagi continues.

"When I saw you with Shiraishi, it hurts. My mind keep screaming, what are you doing, looked so happy with other man, you should make that face only when you're with me, and so on. In the end, it still hurts."
Akaya lift his head, looking closer to Yanagi face. Single tear drips from his eyelid.

"So I think, what've I done all this time, making you feel like this. What a horrible person I am." he whispered quietly, "I don't deserve you."

Akaya pull him to his embrace, caress his hair softly.

"Serves you right, dammit." The younger man wiped his tears, then kiss him. "You gotta pay high price for it. You have to let me top you!"

Yanagi blinked.

"I don't want to break up for such silly reason." He tightened his embrace. "I still love you anyway."

He's shaking a bit. Akaya orders him to look at him. He obeys. There are so much emotion in his eyes so there's no way he has another feeling for me except love, Akaya thinks. And then they kissed. After some time, they pull away.

"Don't cheat on me anymore." Akaya whispered. He snickers.

"You know, in fact, I never cheated on you. I was just teasing you."

"Wha?"

"It started when you saw me bare-naked with Oshitari. In fact, we're just finished our training. The clothes soaked with sweat, so we washed it. You just happen to come in the worst timing ever." He grins. "I thought it was cute, and I want to see more of your jealousy, so I made up some scene, sometimes with their help. Now it backfired."

Akaya pinched his cheek. He muttered some nonsense. Yanagi apologized with smile.

"You will let me top you for sure."

"Well, why not? It's always nice to try something new." Yanagi holds him tight.

"But before that, we should thank Sadaharu. I don't know where he is now and what he is plotting, but we are sure leaving this place."

Akaya laughed. Yanagi laughs, too.

Minutes later, they left, headed to their apartment - their home.

In the way home, Yanagi whispered 'I love you' in a very low and quiet voice so Akaya won't hear him. Akaya heard him anyway. He's just nodded and tighten their hold.